This post has the propensity for becoming quite long. I won’t know until I’ve finished typing it up. So regardless of the fact that you may or may not have the attention span for it I’d stick around because I feel that I might cover some relatively important stuff. So, if you feel the need grab a snack. And while you’re up, could you pour me a drink?
I’ve been neglecting this blog in general as of late. Mainly because I feel that this blog should be exempt from the goings on of my personal life. Because if I start talking about the things that I encounter on a day to day basis what’s to separate me from all of the whiny emo kids and their livejournals?
I only try to post here when I have something worth posting. Something intellectually stimulating that you will either find informative, entertaining, or at the very least will make you think or give you an insight on how things work in my mind. And to do that I have to sit and gather my thoughts as I approach the keyboard.
My self confidence and personality aside I’ve never quite enjoyed the thought of allowing said insights on such a public scale, because hell, I’m the loud, brazen, and insensitive drunken Irish host of Banter Over a Cigarette. Most all of my friends introduce me to new people simply as “The Asshole”. Who would have thought I’d be capable of such deep thoughts, or intriguing insights?
Regardless of any aforementioned statements or preconceived notions here I am again to pour out my mind onto this blog in the form of noun and verb soup.
For those of you who’ve not already checked the show blog expecting to see fresh bonus content, and new episodes of season three only to find nothing short of a few posts that should qualify as blatant cop outs, I apologize. Events spun into motion that I could not control, as I’ve described at length in in recent posts regarding my ineptitude on the show blog.
But as I’ve had time to think about it. I’ve come to realize that these events would not have been allowed to spin, let alone slowly rotate, into motion had I not lacked the foresight to get to work earlier than I did.
I was planning on spending the month of February working on all of that fun stuff and then launching the first Monday of march. But I’d get home from work and think to myself, “Oh, it’s no problem. I’ll have plenty of time to work on it.”, Until one day I woke up and noticed that I’d found myself at the very last day of February with no work to show for it. So I pushed the release date back by one week and got to work. I had everything all ready to go, and as I’d previously explained on the show blog, my file hosting server just plain refused to step up to the task.
Had I gotten to work sooner on the launch of season three, this would have been something I’d have noticed back in February when I’d originally intended to release the first episode of bonus content. But instead I sat around and did no work on the show and didn’t find out until it was too late to fix. The show has been delayed due to things I cannot control, but had I stepped up sooner I would never have lost the reigns to that mythical creature that none of us really have command over, known as “control”.
Everyday I learn something new, some of those days the new thing I learn is something about myself. I’m big enough of a man, metaphorically and literally, to admit when I’ve done wrong.
Sorry, I fucked up. And now I have the knowledge to prevent this in the future, lets hope that when the time comes I’ll have cultivated the skills to act upon it.
Back in December after my ex left for Texas I came home to find a box sitting on my coffee table. This box had contained an advanced, first edition copy of Scott Sigler’s newest novel “Contagious”, the sequel to his novel “Infected”. They are both good reads and I hope you’ll check them out.
I’d recieved this book ten days prior to its release date for the sole purpose of doing a book review. This is a promise that I’ve yet to make good on. At the time that I’d gotten the book I didn’t have a computer to do the review on. And when I finally did have a computer I had technical difficulties setting it up, a new job that I had to perform for money so that I could buy myself nice things, as well as personal drama in my life that I had to sort out. Now after all the dust clears, the only reason that I have left to not do this review is procrastination. I’ll have this review written and up by the end of tomorrow. In this day and age a man’s worth and a mans word don’t count as much as they used to. Which is why I use every opportunity to keep mine. I’ve been neglecting to do that as of late, it’s something I’m working on.
I was going to insert a small update of what’s been going on with me lately, but I’m almost one-thousand words deep in this post and I don’t want to wear out your attention span anymore than I already have. Anyway, I’m drawing a blank so I’ll see you next time.
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